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9月1日 A Brief Portrait of My Ethnic and Belief BackgroundsAs I have in different times exhibited to others ethnically confusing appearances ranging from Black, Hispanic to Asian and Caucasian, I've been asked often as to my ethnic background. I'm a "mixed-breed" of Chinese, British and Malaysian blood. I was born with pink complexion which stayed with me in my childhood, except that I grew abnormally fast (according to my parents, my skull solidified in 6 months after birth, and I already had 24 teeth by age 2, I reached approx. 5'7" by age 12, and 5'10" by 16, I've gotten 34 teeth by age 18, I still kept growing pass age 25, I'm now over 5'11"), I resembled the authentic pure Chinese breed (except my height and big British frame) throughout my childhood. It was not until my adulthood did my mixed-blood start to show gradually on me.
I've been told I'm like a chameleon who picks up the looks of people where I live, this sounds baloney from a logical point of view, yet amusingly collaborate with many incidences that I've experienced from people around me. I currently have four residences (NYC, New Jersey, China, India). I deal with many African Americans and other "colored", and "mixed-breed" people in my profession (entertainment industry) here in the US. People often ask if my junior assistant (a tall black model) and I are sisters; when I attended social events and benefits I'm often asked if I am related to Kimora Lee Simons; more often than occasionally, especially when I'm overseas, I'd be told that I resemble Angelina Jolie (ridiculous!); in India, I'm most of the time thought to be from its West Bengal state; I blend extremely well with the South American locals (esp. a Brazilian "mulatta"), unfortunately my Spanish and Portugese suck; in Kenya and even in UAE, I was mistaken frequently as a certain Miss Kenya, esp when I spoke Swahili; nowadays when I go out with my parents (my mom for some reason looks purely Malaysian, and my dad Japanese), strangers often think I'm adopted!? LOL For the last few years, I've never spent a winter season anywhere (I roam overseas from mid Oct. through April) that 3 out of my 4 seasons are summer, as a result, my skin complexion has gotten progressively darker, today I can no longer be easily related to my British blood except for my big bones and athletic built which I inherited from my grandma (who's 95 and shrunk to almost 5'2").
Anyway, growing up, I have been taught with gender-blind, race-blind, and religion-blind approaches by my family. I've always have a natural inclination to hang out with diverse culture groups, I'm almost equally attached to and detached from racial groups; I admit that I've always had a prefrence to "mix-breed" people, for more often than not, I have successfully acquired amongst them like-minded friends. I'm mocked by my friends as a "refugee" and female nomad - traveling, especially off the beaten tracks, is my strongest addiction, for which I would trade anything, including dating and a great deal of my professional and social engagements. Those who do not know me well many easily label me with "commitment-phobia", I cannot care more. I've lived in China, India, the UK, and Kenya, and briefly in Brazil. America has afforded me quality educations, professional opportunities and social networks, and she is a nation that I fondly and proudly associate with in terms of my main identity, regardless of how much I'm against bigoted nationalism - I can be called a new (social) liberalist with regards to my political inclination.
As to my belief backgrounds, it's no less complicated than my ethnic appearances. My great grandparents (maternal) were Catholic. My great grandfather was a missioner who traveled/resided overseas in several developing nations during his lifetime. My grandmother was raised, however, with an agnostic approach toward religions, she is today an non-theistic Buddist. Both of my grandfathers were atheists and passed away when I was little, my paternal grandmother is absolutely agnostic (and confusedly so). Both of my parents are atheists who firmly believe in the non-existence of deities and any supernatural beings (e.g., ghosts), my mother is a Marxist, and my father a libertarian and Confucianist.
Religions and philosophies were never imposed upon me growing up, I only started studying philosophies when I was 12, and religions since age 16, and both by my own choice. The writings by Erich Fromm and Elvin Toffler have influenced a great deal my personal views of social evolutions and human relationships thence; Taoist and New Age beliefs regarding the Cosmo, world, nature, and human living have supplemented my belief system pertaining to daily life. I was for some years an "absolute agnoistic" (or a "pseudo atheist", like my paternal grandmother who has throughout her life teetered between theism and non-theism); I have since around age 20 been a non-theist -- my non-practice of religion stems from the recognition of the futility of (un)provability for deities or impersonal gods that serves NO beneficial ends to my daily living or my earth-bound relationships with the Cosmo, the nature, people and myself.
It is needless to futher depict my belief system. As far as I'm under the guidance of the general attitude/perspective as a non-theist, Taoist and mixed-breed, any indulgence in the literal texts or "proper" classifications of social groups, and debates therein as to the superiority of one set of beliefs to another is, well, flatly said, none of my business, objective or interest!! -- The above is all you need to know about me with regards to my ethnic and belief backgrounds. :)
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